Monday, May 14, 2012
round 1 - passed
well children, mama passed one of her final tests before the state will allow this ginger to start doing hair legally.
how am i going to celebrate?
#1 blow all of my itunes gift cards.
#2 buy new shoes.
#3 go to called to surf and buy some cool trendy hipster california born outfit or dress. who knows what they'll have in store for me.
#4 go on a loooonng, long, beautiful run.
#5 pass out via poolside.
#6 have a rock concert in the shower.
#7 last but not least! party. and party hard i will.
how am i going to celebrate?
#1 blow all of my itunes gift cards.
#2 buy new shoes.
#3 go to called to surf and buy some cool trendy hipster california born outfit or dress. who knows what they'll have in store for me.
#4 go on a loooonng, long, beautiful run.
#5 pass out via poolside.
#6 have a rock concert in the shower.
#7 last but not least! party. and party hard i will.
unbelievably blessed.
thank you family.
thanks you friends.
thank you God.
Tuesday, May 1, 2012
left all my problems behind
i've been having nightmares.
every night for the past few weeks.
keeping me tossing and turning in my bed, attempting to run away from my own mind.
today i woke up in a panic.
looked at the clock, 10:00AM.
how did i sleep so long?
i may have been sleeping in the perfect terror, but i slept through the night at waayy past 6:00AM.
progress.
i woke up to taylor having a rock concert below the guest room i had passed out in last night while reading the third book of the hunger games, mockingjay. trying to prolong the night terrors. the lamp on the night stand still glowing and three too many pillows surrounding me. she was blasting some teeny bopper band that i have no idea about. but it's 10:00AM, on a tuesday. why is she home?
ohhh yes. dentist appointment. taylor goes to a pediatric dentist out of town, so little her got to skip school today. i showered, she bathed, mama showered, and off we went. my head was running a thousands miles per hour the entire way there. over thinking everything i had dreamt of last night. reliving it all. the thoughts ran through my mind and the smell of the farmland surrounding us that began to seep in through the car's vents were making me nauseous. i could feel the trail mix i was attempting to eat begin to crawl up my throat. i just kept telling myself..."breath in your nose, out your mouth." then just thought, STOP BEING A LITTLE GIRL, AND PLEASE JUST GET ME OUT OF THIS STUPID CAR! we have arrived. thank goodness.
taylor's little people dentist visit went quick. then we wondered through old navy, skipped through target, and walked up and down every over sized isle at costco. grabbing every last sample of V8, humus and whole wheat crackers, and gazed over the giant tents and play sets suspended from the ceiling. i've decided that i need a costco card. i love those chocolate covered raisins that they sell by bulk way too much. and please, don't even get me started on those gigantic strawberries! they must be infused with steroids, because those babies are giant.
we left right at sunset. the green lush mountains that this buzzing city was tucked away in were beautiful. sunlight reflecting off of the trees and the river that cut the town in half. we listened closely to carrie underwood's new cd. every single track, every single word. i chomped on my chocolate covered raisins, mama on her cinnamon licorice, and taylor dinked around on her ipad... trying to beat her high score on angry birds.
as we buzzed up and down the wine filled hills, my nightmares escaped my mind. i wasn't nauseous. i wasn't uneasy. i was no longer scared.
i had successfully ran away from my own mind.
you can find me and my mama on our leather couches. she gazing over at me as the clock struck 9. "ssoooo... dancing with the stars? (her show) or the voice?... (my show)". this little girl ain't got no tivo.
the voice it is. and kid cudi is on... ohhh lala. man candy :)
i'm also craving strawberries, sour cream, and brown sugar. who would've thought... strawberries, sour cream, and brown sugar. (thank you brother and sister thompson) ohhh! and strawberry lemonade.
fridge. come at me.
every night for the past few weeks.
keeping me tossing and turning in my bed, attempting to run away from my own mind.
today i woke up in a panic.
looked at the clock, 10:00AM.
how did i sleep so long?
i may have been sleeping in the perfect terror, but i slept through the night at waayy past 6:00AM.
progress.
i woke up to taylor having a rock concert below the guest room i had passed out in last night while reading the third book of the hunger games, mockingjay. trying to prolong the night terrors. the lamp on the night stand still glowing and three too many pillows surrounding me. she was blasting some teeny bopper band that i have no idea about. but it's 10:00AM, on a tuesday. why is she home?
ohhh yes. dentist appointment. taylor goes to a pediatric dentist out of town, so little her got to skip school today. i showered, she bathed, mama showered, and off we went. my head was running a thousands miles per hour the entire way there. over thinking everything i had dreamt of last night. reliving it all. the thoughts ran through my mind and the smell of the farmland surrounding us that began to seep in through the car's vents were making me nauseous. i could feel the trail mix i was attempting to eat begin to crawl up my throat. i just kept telling myself..."breath in your nose, out your mouth." then just thought, STOP BEING A LITTLE GIRL, AND PLEASE JUST GET ME OUT OF THIS STUPID CAR! we have arrived. thank goodness.
taylor's little people dentist visit went quick. then we wondered through old navy, skipped through target, and walked up and down every over sized isle at costco. grabbing every last sample of V8, humus and whole wheat crackers, and gazed over the giant tents and play sets suspended from the ceiling. i've decided that i need a costco card. i love those chocolate covered raisins that they sell by bulk way too much. and please, don't even get me started on those gigantic strawberries! they must be infused with steroids, because those babies are giant.
we left right at sunset. the green lush mountains that this buzzing city was tucked away in were beautiful. sunlight reflecting off of the trees and the river that cut the town in half. we listened closely to carrie underwood's new cd. every single track, every single word. i chomped on my chocolate covered raisins, mama on her cinnamon licorice, and taylor dinked around on her ipad... trying to beat her high score on angry birds.
as we buzzed up and down the wine filled hills, my nightmares escaped my mind. i wasn't nauseous. i wasn't uneasy. i was no longer scared.
i had successfully ran away from my own mind.
you can find me and my mama on our leather couches. she gazing over at me as the clock struck 9. "ssoooo... dancing with the stars? (her show) or the voice?... (my show)". this little girl ain't got no tivo.
the voice it is. and kid cudi is on... ohhh lala. man candy :)
i'm also craving strawberries, sour cream, and brown sugar. who would've thought... strawberries, sour cream, and brown sugar. (thank you brother and sister thompson) ohhh! and strawberry lemonade.
fridge. come at me.
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