20.

i am so BUGGED with myself! i haven't blogged in ages, and it's eating me. kind of...


i'm currently reading stephanie nielson's book "heaven is here" and in the mists of her being a super hero her love to blog has sparked mine, yet again!


i celebrated my birthday almost two weeks ago.


i am 20 years old. 


the day was celebrated with lots of family, loved ones, and the best of friends.


i got a new laptop. can you say Macbook Pro? i'm still geeking out over it. (how embarrassing.) 


that afternoon we went to "jump on it". a place near provo covered wall to wall with trampolines and foam pits. they literally have trampolines on the walls... i think something is wrong with me. i've been fueling up on the h2o like usual... but every time i jumped i peed a little. yes, peed. and i'm talking EVERY TIME. i took my little 20 year old self to the bathroom to relieve any pee that was trying to escape via jumping up and down, but it kept coming! i haven't gave any births lately that i remember so what the heck is happening?! mama recommend a few "you know what" exercises. lets all pray that they work so i'm not the dork peeing her pants every time she decides to have some fun. we went to chilis for dinner, my newest restaurant addiction! they have the best chips and salsa. i eat it like animal, with it usually dripping everywhere once i'm finished. (currently drooling just thinking about it.) then we went to a comedy club to top the night off. for anyone and everyone living in provo, go to "comedy sports" in provo RIGHT NOW! best choice you'll ever make.


i already miss those mountains, and that pretty happy happy valley.


but i am 20.


my brother is married.


and i have moved back to washington.


not just for the summer, but for the fall. and the winter. and spring. and maybe the next summer. who knows!


i've always tried to convince myself that i would NEVER move back... but here i am. and i would always tell myself that if i did move back it would be oh so temporary. i'm currently eating my words..


being 20, and living back at home. i'm setting a few goals to keep myself a float.


i bought a new leather bound journal, since my last one was on its final stretch with overfilled pages and a broken spine. and with that journal, with me being 20 and all.. i'm going to fill it with everything. (another thing stephanie nielson has inspired to me do.) the things too embarrassing for me to even tell myself will be scribbled into that little book. all my hopes, dreams, crushes, loves, heartbreaks, victories, failures. i want it all there, in the raw.


i'm going to take the insanity challenge! my dad was up at 3:00AM while the girls were away, and what else comes on but an "insanity" infomercial... and that bad boy suckered him right in! it's only a two month ordeal. and the two months are going to by if i'm working out or not! SO LETS DO IT. i hear it's the hardest thing ever, so i will be accepting any and all encouraging voices, and maybe some encouraging brownies just to refuel every once in a while...?


i'm going to get a job. and buy cowgirl boots. and a plane ticket to hawaii to visit cherie.


i want to enroll in gymnastic classes, but that one is still up in the air for now... haha.


and i want to be the best big sister tay's ever had.


i'm still working on more goals... but this will do for now.


let's go.