14

it's been 14 days since i've last blogged..

WHATS WRONG WITH ME?

to be honest, life has been too great to actually take out some time to sit down with my good ol' lappy. 

but tonight me and deereey got kicked out of apartment 336 by the raintree patrol, and have nothing else to do with our night. 

so here i am... finally blogging :)

did you know that you can print out an entire blog whenever you want with some fancy dancy website? and you know that's what i'm going to do at the end of this year.

i have no idea what made me want to even start blogging.

probably because i sucked at writing in my journal and felt retarded talking to myself.

plus, no one else read it. i guess journals are suppose to be personal and all, but i kind of like hearing that people actually read this.

i had a nudge that maybe some things i write are actually inspiring or interesting, but to hear that people actually wait for my posts blows my mind.

plus, i hated having these awesome experiences, writing them down, placing them who knows where, and then loosing them and never finding them again.

my senior year of high school my drill team coach gave all of us seniors a binded black book with pictures all the way back from our freshman year to our senior year.

pictures of state championships, national championships, drill team camps, football performances, and a long heartfelt paragraph from the legend herself; lori baker.

now you see, if she had never made this book all those memories would be no where but scattered in my little ginger skull.

but no, there in that book which now sits by my bed. always has since that night she gave them to us.

so what about all of MY memories? the ones i'm suppose to be journaling for my great grandchildren's, great grand kids to read once i'm long gone. yes, i still have my own more private journal i write deep dark secrets in.. but what about the daily things? the things that change my life. the things i want others to read hoping that they'll be somewhat affected by my own life experiences.

i've been thinking about how awesome this thing is going to be by january 1st. i started this a totally different girl then who i am now. (and the year isn't even over yet!)

but to whoever reads this someday, as they flip the pages they'll see an undeniable transformation.

a transformation that probably saved my life.

a transformation that made me the kind of girl i'm going to tell my kids i always was. you know, the perfect teenage your parents lie to you about.

this girl is becoming kind of awesome.

...and we're just getting started..

:)